I am in a constant state of pain and restlessness and I don't know how much of that is showing in my outer life. I want to express myself and I'm bored so I have been posting rather regularly in deviantart. IN a few days I will be taking a week long trip with a friend, to go down to Edmonton and visit a friend who just moved away.

I am depressed as all hell and yet life is getting better for me and not worse. Today was an emotionally draining day. I went to the memorial service for a very good guy who died much too soon. Someone who had such a wonderful influence on people around him and soeone I wish I could have gotten to know better...but that's life, right?

It's too fucking early. I want to get started on tomorrow and it's still today...too many hours and yet in the end too few. I suppose there are just too many unporductive, sitting doing nothing hours.

Anyway I won't be updating while I'm gone for the week. I will be updating when I get back and then I'll be taking another trip to Idaho and then updating when I get back from that trip.